For Future Refrence...

Like I said before, I have a lot of things I want. I guess you couldn't say they're all material things...but more of what I'd like to become. Things that make me who I am. I'm ambitious. But I'm very quiet about those ambitions.
Well. Mostly.
And for those who have raised me or watched me grow up, I suppose they might all tell you the exact same thing. But I've changed quite a bit. Gone through a lot of "stages" and have yet to hit all of them. Over the past year and a half, though, I've figured out who I think I want to be when I graduate from college. And the thing is, I don't think I'm as scared as I thought I'd be.
well. I want to graduate high school. I guess every redhawk has to fly at some point. I want to go to a college that has meaning behind it. A history. Tradition. Somewhere that I can be proud to say, I went there and I knew I loved it. Somewhere like UT Austin, North Carolina, or Gonzaga! [that one would be for my uncle.] I wish I could be better at running. I mean, I wish I could be faster. I'm not the best at racing. But I've decided distance is my calling. So maybe cross country will bode well for my junior year. When I graduate college I want to do one of two things. Either a) become a trainer for some kind of sports team or b) brew my own beer, and continue a long running career. Both sound great. Option a would probably be pretty great. And option b sounds pretty amazing. I think I'd like to do the second one. Do my dad proud. Brewing beer and running for the rest of my life? That sounds pretty choice if you ask me. I'd like to live somewhere like Boulder, Eugene, or British Columbia. Just a place where I can wake up and go run. And breathe mountain air. And, last, but not least, I want someone to love. I mean, I'll always love my family. But I want someone for myself. Someone to hold and love forever. Because, I've been a hopeless romantic since I have no idea when.
Thus concluding my hopes, wishes and wants for the years ahead.
So I guess that's a lot for a fifteen year old to have on her mind. But I've just got a lot of time on my hands. Time to wonder about what I'll become. What I hope I'll become. Because I don't want to become another mindless desk jockey. Yeah. A desk jockey.

So, that's all for now.
I'll probably have more later.

keep it real,
alex