The General Wants and Needs.

I WANT THERE TO BE PRACTICE TOMORROW.

Yes, I apologize to all of you who have been texting me, wondering if we have or don't have practice, but who wants to start their mileage alone?
Er. Not me.

I know it's going to be freezing outside. Yes, I understand it's going to be under twenty degrees. And there may be ice. Or harsh winds. But. I. Don't. Care.
I want to run. I want to start my day off right. Without it, I'm kind of lost.

I'm wondering if I have homework. And I'm guessing I probably do.
But I have no desire or motivation to get such things done. No, instead I'll be laying here and staying cold. Contemplating jumping in the bath and drawing pictures. Or drawing on my arm...
But seriously. I should be getting this all done..haha.

We're talking about painting the walls. I've already painted the walls in my sister's room. Chalkboard wall, a Famous 'F' and freehand graffiti to match. I want a chalkboard wall as well, and some black and white artistic designs on the other walls. I want Harold and the Purple Crayon purple chalk to draw on my walls and write my things. That would be amazing.

And tomorrow is my last day at school this week. Because I'll be gone all day to Meyers Park to show the fireplace grate I made for FFA. And I know this is going to sound extra dorky, but I'm really excited to go. I really hope I place. But I doubt it.

So many things. Every day is a new challenge. A new journey. New wants and needs.
Yes, I have some angst. But I'm a teenager. It happens.
I've realized that school really isn't that bad, it's just tiring, and that being at home isn't so bad either. Everything is just really...slow.
Running makes my life just a little faster.

I'm lost and confused. I'm dazed and crazed. I'm content and amazed.
I am what I've always aimed to be.
Insane but happy.

PS - There is no practice tomorrow. I am devestated. haha